Oo. I have incredible people in my life! INCREDIBLE. I love their honesty and who they all are. Things have been a bit interesting the last couple of days. Interesting good, but still interesting.
Gonna be positive about it, even the not so pleasant parts, and gonna say that its an opportunity for growth. In actuality, 85% of it was good! The rest is just change. I am getting set in my ways. Change not coming as easily to me either. LOL. Like that writing process and me fighting the edits, but I did it. I could wring Matt's neck too, because he says, "yea we are going back to most of the original... I didn't see the 'big picture' til now." Thanks. LOVE YOU TOO! *breathing* what else can I do? I have to just trust in the process.
trust in the process... hummmm
Change. I did cut that 'unproductive vine', Sir! Moving on, I don't have place in my life for that. Yes, Sir, you were correct. Congrats calling it for what it is. I do listen to my friends, I am also incredibly hopeful. DW, and LJ, I at some point will figure it out, that's gentlemen for your patience. Kimmie, Ryan, and Papi you were right too, with you f**k 'em statements! Yikes. Thanks Cookie for trying to keep the boat afloat for so long, it was a sinking ship. Jenn and Allie, yup... See I just need to be V8 face palmed every so often. Point is, I got nothin' but love for my friends and their ability to be honest with me. YOU ALL ROCK!
Still wonderfully blessed with who is IN my life, that they get me, that they want to see me succeed too. YEA! Its wonderful to know that I have that soft place to fall, to be me, to be held when I need to... but that they all still also share in my successes. COME ON PEOPLE, we got this. Shooting for the stars here. And I am taking all of you with me! Its growth, its moving forward, its on to wonderful dreams and possibilities. Being positive that we can all accomplish our dreams. I promise each one of you if you share those aspirations with me, and I will encourage you along too.
Showing posts with label honesty. Show all posts
Showing posts with label honesty. Show all posts
Saturday, May 14, 2011
Saturday, April 23, 2011
the well runs deep.
some of the stuff i have posted as far as poetry is concerned is old stuff... some new, that's the beauty of it really. it just needs a home... that home is here. its real. all of it 100% those are my feelings, thoughts, what nots... all spewed before you. these "notes in between" unless otherwise stated are now....
inorder to move forward you must know where you've been. yea. i had some problems in the past. a horrific relationship. i refuse to play that victim card. shit happens you move through it, it makes you part of who you are. no pitty parties here, at least not life long ones. deal with the cards. make the most of those lemons, hell throw them back at people! where i was going, before that tangent was... sometimes inorder to appreciate the water, it helps to see how deep the well runs. so this is some of the past... some of the present and a huge dream for the future.
challange accepted. posted. i will try and keep as much of these as public as i can. its tough... always wondering if there is someone looking over my shoulder. i am stepping out of those shadows, as much as i can. hell even writing this blog was a huge step for me. ever fearful of someone's critism, critiqes... but i have to be honest. i have to live my life too!
on another note after a whole day immersed in the writing/creative process.... i am spent! filled out a bunch of questions about my characters. thank goodness for google documents! every once in awhile i have a moment of genuis. yup, good idea, thinking most of the hard copies were left in oregon. :( that just stinks. i still had probably 85% of it and together with the bookmarks i worked this morning, i found most of my research. kudos. it paid to take that mexican american history classes, well both, and do all those assignments... (i know prof. peralta). i cannot get much into each character, or atleast not right now, brain is mush! enjoyed being exhausted this way, can't quite see straight, so its probaly time to stop the writing at this point. ttyl-
inorder to move forward you must know where you've been. yea. i had some problems in the past. a horrific relationship. i refuse to play that victim card. shit happens you move through it, it makes you part of who you are. no pitty parties here, at least not life long ones. deal with the cards. make the most of those lemons, hell throw them back at people! where i was going, before that tangent was... sometimes inorder to appreciate the water, it helps to see how deep the well runs. so this is some of the past... some of the present and a huge dream for the future.
challange accepted. posted. i will try and keep as much of these as public as i can. its tough... always wondering if there is someone looking over my shoulder. i am stepping out of those shadows, as much as i can. hell even writing this blog was a huge step for me. ever fearful of someone's critism, critiqes... but i have to be honest. i have to live my life too!
on another note after a whole day immersed in the writing/creative process.... i am spent! filled out a bunch of questions about my characters. thank goodness for google documents! every once in awhile i have a moment of genuis. yup, good idea, thinking most of the hard copies were left in oregon. :( that just stinks. i still had probably 85% of it and together with the bookmarks i worked this morning, i found most of my research. kudos. it paid to take that mexican american history classes, well both, and do all those assignments... (i know prof. peralta). i cannot get much into each character, or atleast not right now, brain is mush! enjoyed being exhausted this way, can't quite see straight, so its probaly time to stop the writing at this point. ttyl-
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