*taps off the dust* Sorry, it has been too long since I have posted something public... I say public, because there are entries that will never see the light of day. Just writing to write really. I have kept up sorta, but nothing really worth putting out there and honestly some of it is just too much to put out there. I know I promised sincerity upon beginning this blog and I will continue to write upon that platform, speaking my mind, thoughts, and inner feelings.
Lets see where to begin?
Well the calender changed, but that is a given. Welcoming in January. CHANGE. YEAH that has been the theme the past year, 2011. Was all about change, transition, transformation...
1.) Change is the only constant: adapt, evolve, and embrace it
2.) There is ALWAYS some positive parts/pieces to change. ALWAYS.
Okay first off you can be resistant to change but you will just cause yourself tons of grief and potentially lots of illness as well as just being a stick in the mud (no fun). As I was looking back over the past year I decided to look and see where I was ONE year ago. Hummmm.... I was dating someone whom I thought was an amazing man and had my best interests at heart. Lol. <--- awkward laugh btw. I guess you live and you learn. That is the best that can be said about that statement. He is a very smart man, but as for having my best interests at heart, I don't believe that was ever the case. I now know the difference. CHANGE. I thought my whole world was falling apart, I thought I had to hold on tight to this relationship or ... honestly, I don't know the "or what?" part of that statement. The tighter I held the more resistance was received. Letting go was one of the best things I ever did. I learned my lessons, found an even better me, and there are no regrets.
Six months ago. I thought I knew who my friends were. I thought that I knew the definition of a friend. CHANGE. I had to redefine the meaning of the word and it was at a very unexpected time in a very unexpected way. The first changes and lessons from the relationship mentioned in the former paragraph came into play. Suddenly I was able to provide boundaries. Something that just hadn't happened before. Every time in my past I would draw that line in the sand, often moving it as convenient for whatever the situation. BUT the discovery this time was that I was WORTH exactly the boundaries that I had put in place. And my FRIENDS respected and never questioned the boundaries. Picked up my lessons learned and moved forward. Friend means something unique now, not common at all. My number of friends is limited my number of best friends, ones that I can count on through it all, I can count on one hand. But that is all is ever needed, quality over quantity any day! Knowing who is deserving of my time and energy, two investments that you will never gain return on, is priceless.
The challenge, I have noticed is to be able to find positive in ALL change. It's there, though you may have to dig.
The subjects touched upon tonight will most likely be common thread throughout the blog. It's really part of my own journey and discovery.
Happy New Year. Be well. And as always it is with an open heart I proceed. :o)
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